Memories – The First Interview

06/26/2018 My Amazing Aaron I have been having a lot of memories pop up lately and they make me cry – it’s difficult when it is at work. When you have worn out the understanding of why it is still so difficult you just deal with it wherever you are at so I cry at my desk. I’ve pretty much done that from the beginning but I’m at a different desk now so I’m not isolated like I use to be. I’m hoping that if I stop and write the memories down as they come it will help. I’m not sure if it is the 2 year mark coming up or what is happening but it’s there and I’ve noticed I’m more weepy than usual. For me it seems to get harder because more time has passed since you have been gone. When I look back at pictures of the past 2 years you are not in them – that is not how it should be…

The memory of you that I wrote down today was from our apartment in Lakewood. I still haven’t driven by there when I visit home – I don’t know when I will be able to – I cry when I think about just doing that.

Anyway – we had a Burger King that was in walking distance so you decided you were going to apply for a job there – you would have been 16 so that was 2012. You went over to Burger King – filled out an application and interviewed. When you got home and I asked what happened you said you didn’t get the job. I finally got out of you that you had told the interviewer that you only expected to be at the job for a short period of time until you moved on to something better – you just wanted to earn some spending money. You weren’t trying to be disrespectful or looking down on the job – you just had other plans and goals as to what you wanted to do so you truthfully explained what your intentions were. You were so painfully honest without realizing that the majority of the population doesn’t function that way. I tried to explain to you how it worked – that you were supposed to make it appear that you were planning on staying at that job. I don’t think you understood what was wrong with being truthful about what you wanted and there shouldn’t be. You just didn’t have that filter so you told people what you really thought – not trying to be rude or disrespectful – it was just the way you were. I think the whole event hurt your feelings – you didn’t look for another job after that. So many times my heart would break for you and even though I tried to explain to you it would upset you more. I was only trying to protect you but it seemed I would end up making you feel worse. I’m so sorry for that my beautiful boy. I found a few pictures that were from June 26th of different years so I used those. They don’t go with the story but you are in them and they are good memories. I miss you every single day my Angel Bear. I love you with all my heart always and forever no matter what 

 

2 thoughts on “Memories – The First Interview

  1. Hello,

    I was friends with Aaron. I wrote him letters while he was in the military. I always looked forward to getting letters back from him.

    He was such a genuinely sweet person and I am so sorry for your loss. He touched my life and so many other peoples lives. The world needs more people like him.

    I’m so happy you are keeping his memory alive and making his story known. Best wishes.

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    1. Hi Taylor. Yes I remember your name. Aaron would be excited when talking about you and the letters you sent him. I still have them. Thank you for your kind words. I miss him every single minute of every single day. I haven’t been good about writing on here – as much as I want to it has been a struggle but I keep trying. It is important that people remember him and know who he was. It meant a lot to me to hear from you and I really appreciate it.

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